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23 March 2008 @ 10:58 am
Happy Easter... or not  
This was the start of what I thought was going to be a good day. My grandpa and grandma will visit today and have Easter dinner with us, and tomorrow I'll go see my other grandma for her birthday and meet up with all my cousins whom I haven't seen in nearly a year.

It all started with Easter breakfast this morning, we had all kinds of sweet things, easter bread, raisin bread, chocolate spread, toast and eggs. Then when I decided to change my pajamas for some normal clothes, I made the mistake to weigh myself. Now I know you should never weigh yourself after eating, but I figured I'd just delete the 'breakfast pounds' in my mind.

What I saw next scared the hell out of me. I am fat, very very fat. The arrow nearly reached the 200 pounds (90 kg), this is a weight I've never ever reached before and am so not proud of. More specifically, it depresses me. So for the rest of the day, no chocolate eggs or sweets for me. I NEED to lose all this extra fat. Especially if you know I used to be like 50 pounds lighter. This is what mono does to you! Ugh, I'll stick to a dry bread and water diet.

So, great start of my Easter weekend, hope you all have a better one!

/rant
 
 
Feeling: depresseddepressed
 
 
 
Tannyzequins on March 23rd, 2008 01:51 pm (UTC)
Hon you can't let your weight depress you, even though it's hard. It will so much hard to get motivated to lose it again then.
You really didn't have much control over your mono so you can't blame yourself. So instead of thinking about how much it absolitely sucks, it's better to think of ways to motivate yourself to get started on working out. I'm not sure dry bread and water is the right way to go though, starving yourself wont help :)

I know it sucks, but don't let it get you down, use it as motivation instead :) *huggles*
missy_myra: Booth Brennanmissy_myra on March 23rd, 2008 08:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the kind words sweetie. But this scared me so much, so it was an immediate motivator to start working out again (I'm glad I had already signed up with the gym). I talked to mom about it today, and she's gonna help me by watching what she buys and cooks. It should be fine.

Thanks for being here though and giving me even more motivation :) *huggles back*