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18 July 2008 @ 07:16 pm
I am SO fed up...  
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I really really need to get out of here, like seriously. My parents are just driving me insane, I can't handle it anymore, I'm afraid I'll burst!

It all started yesterday when my mom got home from her holiday with my brother. The first, maybe the second thing she said to me was: "you gained weight." Argh! I had to try and tell her that I don't lack the motivation to lose the weight, but it's just not working, it hasn't worked in ten years!

A few weeks ago I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, somewhere between bulimia and binge eating disorder. It scared me and my parents, but now they've seemed to completely forgotten that food is an addiction to me. Just as cigarettes and alcohol can be to people. And I'm trying to find help for it, but haven't yet. These past weeks it's been going okay, but now that my mom is bothering me with it again (while she knows not to comment on my weight, I do that myself 24/7), she still did.

So now that I think I finally got her to understand to not talk about my weight, we start the next one. A job. Not the one (or two) I have now, but no, the one they want me to get on a saturday so I can help finance my expensive college. No problem, saving up money for that now. But they can't seem to understand that I've been doing all I can to find a job here for the saturday, but there just isn't one available. And once I find one, it will have to be in a store, where I won't be able to make more money than 50 a month!

If I need to finance my school alone, I'll just have to get a student loan, because it's all too expensive. But they don't get it! They think the only thing I do during the day is be lazy, pick my nose and sleep! They are so wrong! I'm working my ass off to save money for college, and all the other things I'll need. I'm trying to save for my own apartment (which I sooo need) and for my driving lessons.

And then to top it all they don't take me serious as I tell them there's something I need to go to the doctor for. I'm afraid that I have Crohn's disease, but nah, they just think I'm overreacting.

Gah I really need to get out of here!!!

Feeling: angryangry
Melaniemelolle on July 18th, 2008 05:39 pm (UTC)
Doesn't family suck? I mean seriously...

I hope you get out of there soon so you can find the happiness you not only deserve but need.
missy_myra: Vartannmissy_myra on July 18th, 2008 05:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you hun, I really hope I can move out, that will make the relationship with my parents better hopefully. It's not that I don't love them, but sometimes it seems as if they just don't get me.
Tanny: GSR - geek datezequins on July 18th, 2008 08:20 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry things are so shitty at the moment hon :/
I really think you need to move out and find yourself because this doesn't seem to be working.
Don't worry about the finances thingy... I have a student loan too. There are more important things to worry about at the moment. You need to feel better about yourself and you need to be healthy :) *hugs*
missy_myra: Sara b/wmissy_myra on July 20th, 2008 10:03 am (UTC)
Thank you hun.
I'm going to have a good conversation with my parents today about moving out, and see if I can look at some cheap apartments.
*hugs back*
Tannyzequins on July 20th, 2008 10:12 am (UTC)
That sounds good :) I hope you guys work something out.